Committing to growth – both yours & mine & the worlds’

This post has been in me for a few weeks, tumbling around as I navigated the vast array of “stuff” I’ve committed to in my life. As my mother put it, “you’ve sure got a lot of pots on the stove, my dear.” Yes, that is true. And thus why RK Tip of the Week yesterday was essentially about the positive side of the phrase, ‘check yourself before you wreck yourself.’

I have always & will always educate, share & motivate you based on things going on in my life, my work & in the world around us – because that’s what’s impacting you, me & the world right now! Well, I got my shiz checked a few weeks ago by someone who cares about me because, to use another cheesy phrase, I was cruisin’ for a bruisin’ (of my mind, body, spirit & soul) due to the unbelievable pressure I had put on myself to be all things to all clients/friends/blogosphere readers/co-workers/self(?)…you can bet that last one got the short end of the stick, my undereye make-up needs & increasing shift from enjoying morning coffee to NEEDING morning coffee were a dead give-away. And thus, why I revised this weeks’ tip to focus in on avoiding what I did a few weeks ago – because I know we’ll all be better off if we can avoid that kind of stress on the road to being great.

Since October of last year, I’ve made the choice to take what I was trying to do in this world on my own – help people achieve a healthier, happier, more fit life – and joined forces with some AMAZING people to do it bigger, stronger, & with greater impact. Which is what it’s all about anyways. That shift meant my entire business became housed within the Performance Center of the Spinal Care & Wellness Clinic which I am a full-time, committed team member of. Where previously I had 6 hours a day to get a few blog posts done if I wanted, since Oct, I have anytime after 8pm or before 7am 2-3 nights a week to write – which is where the sleep deprivation came in.

This blog means a lot to me, for what it can do for others, and I did not want to let it go…but I had a fairly rigorous publishing schedule that I tried making work for a few months alongside a very rigorous work schedule that I’d committed to. I’d get up at 5am to write until 645 when I’d leave  for work, or would get home at 8, to make dinner & be writing by 9pm, hopefully finishing by 12am, then needing to get up at 5 for a workout. Needless to say, it has been exhausting – but again – I did not want to give up something I feel makes even a small impact in this world. But the rope was fraying quickly & was snapping against those around me in the form of strange moods popping up out of nowhere & pure exhaustion to even consider doing anything fun once out of work. So…I got a much needed talking-to about commitment & I realized that in trying to commit more than I was capable of to this meant I was going to fail on commitments to others & to myself.

And since that night, I’ve taken a lot of pressure off myself when it comes to this blog. I still love it (and you) dearly. But I’ve committed to myself that I can only do what is realistic to do WELL with the time that I currently have. So no longer do I stress out & freak out when I can’t keep my 4-5 posts a week goal to you. Because if I did, the quality would be lower, and you’d have one sad, tired blogger typing away to you. And since doing this…I feel so. much. better.

I just want you to know that I am still committed to writing & educating you the best ways that I can – and coaching one-on-one those of you who crave that special attention to your goals – but I will not be committing to you any regimented schedule of posts – I’ll write as often as I’m able with exception to Wed, which will still be RK Tip of the Week day! But I’m committing to having a balanced life, and that means I won’t be staying up till 12am to write & try to get something like a workout in at 5am that is going to actually make me healthier & more balanced. It means there is perpetually clothing hanging on doors & hooks line drying that makes it from the hook to body & bypasses the stop in the proper drawer or closet. It means dishes may sit longer than normal. It means ‘stuff’ will be in the entryway, on the table, & stacked next to the desk. And it’s OK. Because we’re going to commit to what matters & what will make us happy & we’re not going to commit to something that is going to make us cry because it’s just so unreasonable. Outrageous is good when it comes to goals. Unreasonable is not. Commit carefully & fully.